It is my husband’s and my desire to live a life so that others can see our complete trust in Christ.
We were sitting on our porch this morning reading our Bibles and praying and John told me “we’ve done it, we’re doing it, we’re living in a way that others can see our complete trust in Christ.”
Last summer and fall my shop was the only job supporting us. During this time the slow retail season and crazy election year took a toll on our income, so that eventually there wasn’t enough to pay our bills. Then at one point we were given a 2 week notice to pay our rent or to have to be out of our apartment. At the same time our only vehicle was not working well. With each day, we became further and further behind. We didn’t ask for help. We prayed that God would continue to be faithful. We didn’t seek out the generosity of others. We prayed that God would continue to be faithful. We had been there before and God had brought us out of there before, why would he quit this time?
I was growing weary over what to do, should we not enroll in school, but then what? We lived in student housing. We would have to move, but we didn’t have money to move. It was a huge burden on me. One day while I was sinking in my thoughts a neighbor called and asked for advice on basically the same issues we were having. I encouraged her and told her how God had been faithful to us in the years prior. Even how he provided the money for us to move to North Carolina in extraordinary ways. By the time I got off the phone with her I realized that phone call was for me. My own words encouraged myself. My own story. My own experiences of God being faithful.
Currently, we are praying over a ministry opportunity in California. We see God moving and see the gifting’s and desires that God has given us as a fit into this community and opportunity. We even see our vision of the Riverside to work well there.
As my shop slows for the summer again, and this still being our only income, I am not fearful of finances. I have complete trust that God is who he says he is and he will not forsake me. But I am growing weary in the waiting. In the worry that this might not be it. Not that ‘this’ opportunity needs to be it. I guess deep down I still worry that God has forgotten me.
As I have become completely reliant on God I know that if this isn’t it, that something else will come in His time.
“The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him.” Lamentations 3:25
It is my husband and my desire to live a life so that others can see our complete trust in Christ. But more importantly, so that others can see the living God.